Somehow today's kindda fucked up, with my parents. lol. quarreling with them about coming back late. i mean, who the hell wants to go home where its so boring? its like asking you to waste time. and fuck it, today had to argue until HGC started, stupid right? and somemore i told him if i argue with him i'll lose, he don't believe. he got the upper hand, and he'd threatened to cut my allowance once already. and he's a pastor, ironically. non christian parents don't even do that, for god's sake. maybe, it just wasn't fate that he'd become a pastor, and turn his back on me. i know i've been disobedient and all, but how about him? i'd already told him not to become a pastor from the start. it will affect us financially, and in family relationship. but he didn't listen, did he? i'm really sorry, but i'm losing faith in god too. we're not the same.